Sunday, May 29, 2011

Nate's Memorial Day Remembrance

Memorial day Remembrance 
by: Nate Leitz 

“The LORD is my Shepherd; I shall not want.
HE makes me lie down in green pastures.
HE leads me besides still waters.
He restores my soul.
He leads me in the path of righteousness for HIS name's sake.

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil for you are with me; your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.

You prepare the table before me in the presence of my enemies;
you anoint my head with oil;my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life,
and I shall dwell in the house of the LORD forever.”
Ps 23

Today is the 29th of May. The day before Memorial Day and I am yet again separated from my family. Tami and I have been married for 6 years come June and we have always managed to be apart for either Memorial Day or Veteran's day. Right now I am deployed to the desert half a world from the people I love most. Today I am one of those people serving our country in a distant land. I have always tried to remember our country's service men and women in my prayers, especially on Memorial and Veteran's day. To remember men and women of the past, present and future who will fight to defend and even give their lives to protect what they love. And now this year, I am one of those people serving our country in a distant land.

God gave me the opportunity to go and participate in a Fallen Warrior Ceremony today. To be a part of the ceremony and salute as they unloaded and loaded the flag draped boxes of three service members who are going home to their families for the last time. Life is so fragile and we don't know when our lives on this earth may end.

Please pray for our service members and their families that they may find and know Jesus.
Today has changed my life. Please let it change yours also.
Reflect on all God has blessed you with and give thanks

Saturday, May 28, 2011

I Know Your Needs

Affection, companionship, gifts, affirmation... the list goes on, we have so many needs.  Nate and I had to read a book I very much dislike in premarital counseling  His Needs Her Needs, great consent but at the end of every chapter was a story about how a couple ended up having an affair because their needs were not being met... ten affairs, what a downer.  Strangely enough, as much as we gave Chad a hard time for making us read it we reference it the most.  We are always saying "how is your love tank?' or "I need some recreational companionship." Thanks Chad.

When your spouse in gone for five weeks you became painfully aware of these basic needs or "love language" and what is really the most important to you.  For me, normally, it's companionship, after three days I'm going stir crazy because I miss that part of our relationship.  He comes through the front door and it's "hi honey, how was your day?... the girls are probably ready to play outside... I'm just going to throw dinner in real quick... I love you too..." It's just knowing I am not alone.

This deployment has been so different.  I just want someone to do stuff for me, "acts of service."  Wash the dishes, change a diaper, fold the laundry, put away the laundry... just not me, just one time, please.

I don't think it is because I have changed so much.  It's because my needs are being met :)  I don't feel lonely   because I am not alone.  I have had such great support and someone to connect with every day.  This week I felt God saying so clearly "I love you, I know your needs and I will fill you up.  You are not alone." Praise God!

Monday, May 23, 2011

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Secret to Sanity

"In every job that must be done there is an element of fun.  You find the fun and snap, the job's a game."

The secret to sanity when I am caring for three kids 24/7, Mary Poppins.  She's brilliant!

Is it a biscuit? Is it play dough?  It's both, we're helping mom make lunch.

 I just can't wait...

Makenna roles up her piggy.

Now can we eat?

Guess which two are Claire's.

Guilty pleasure, they remind me of my childhood.

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Up Date

We are going on three weeks now and all is well thanks to so really awesome help.  My parents and two of my brothers came and helped me with some big chores this weekend.  It was such a daunting task alone, I am so grateful. Alice got sick last week and a friend, Cassie came by and helped me out.  I'll say it again, I love my friends.  I have also had a friend coming to help ever week for a few hours with whatever I need, house work, yard work, baby sitting, thank you Becca! I The biggest help is just the companionship.  I love it when friends and family stop by.  I don't feel so alone and the girls love all the extra attention, thank you.

Claire and Makenna are doing better then I had imagined.  They ask for Dad every day but their not acting out because he is gone. Makenna is just so two and Claire was going through something before he left (major potty training back slide after surgery). Alice could be sleeping better but I am just grateful she is such an easy going baby.

Nate has been working so hard, flying twelve to fifteen hour missions at all hours.  He basically is working and sleeping.  If you get a chance, send him a facebook message.  He appreciates the encouragement so much. His prayer request today was to have the patience to handle a work problem with respect.

Friday, May 13, 2011

Farm Fun

 Checking out the chickens

 Makenna kept trying to throw the bread in and it would bounce back off the fence, she was determined.
 Kyrsta and Claire
 Asher, Alice and Makenna
 Zeke, not too sure I want to put my hand in there.
 "here bunny, bunny, bunny"
 Claire "Hi chicken!"
 The girls were such brave bouncers, boy, not so much.

 Finally an activity I feel safe with.

 Off on an adventure.
Following the leader...

We had a fun morning at the Simonsen's beautiful home enjoying all there animals.  Thank you Mia for hosting all of us.  It was a great day!

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Stranger at the Door

The dog and I had a bit of a scare last night when a stranger came to the door and just camped out.  All of us were in bed and Deacon just started barking it up, which is very usual.  Then the stranger went back to their truck, parked in my drive way and sat there for like ten minutes.  I waited, phone in hand, praying that they would just GO AWAY!

The next morning I found a note.  It was Bate's Pharmacy coming to deliver Claire's supplies.  They drive their own cars and where normal cloths.  I called, apparently they deliver till 10 PM.  Not to my house!  We have been getting deliveries for Claire for over four years and the thought never even crossed my mind that it could be them.

I miss my big strong man!  I love my dog!

Monday, May 9, 2011

A Soldier

"God's will for your life is where your great passion and the world's great need meet."

I can't remember who said it but it sticks with me.  Nate's job is so much a part of God's calling in his life.  Today, I need to remind myself.  I married a champion, a hero, a guardian.  His passion is to protect and bring justice. He is faithful, honorable, a leader.  Being a soldier is so much more than what he does.  It is a part of what drives him.  God has place in his heart a fire, who am I to put it out?

"No greater love is there then to lay down your life for a friend."  I remember who said that.  I love you Nate.

Sunday, May 8, 2011


One year ago today I sat in a dimly lit hospital room holding the hand of one of the most courageous mothers I know.  Sara had been gracefully working her way through labor.  Her eyes reveled a tender sorrow but in them there was peace.  Her first born, Levi, was already with Jesus.  It was a loss too great for words and yet each person who entered the room was struck by its peace.  The presence of our maker filled the room.  As I stroked Sara's beautiful dark hair I knew, we will never be the same.  We will love more deeply because Christ is holding us now.

My body aced from a depth I had never know as I held little Levi.  Perfect, with his mothers full lips and his fathers brow, they tenderly wrapped him up and we embraced God's gift.  Some how I expected him to just start breathing.  It was all a mistake, he's fine, I thought.  He was truly beautiful.

Thinking back, I am so grateful for so many things.  Thank you to Sara for being the most transparent person I have ever known.  For allowing me to experience your happiest days and your darkest moments.  I am changed because of Gods work through you.  To the Doctors and staff who could not have been more compassionate. I am humbled to have met you.  To my dear friend Jackie who was constantly praying and encouraging everyone.  Your words and soft spirit bless me more then you'll ever know.  To my wonderful husband who supported me and loved me through my grieving.  You cared for our children without a single moment of hesitation. I love you all.

God is good and we anxiously await the arrival of baby Milla any day.  Levi, I will never forget you and I look forward to seeing your face again in heaven. 

Thursday, May 5, 2011


I have to give  a shout out to our new friend Jessica who has been bringing me meals all week, THANK YOU!  She didn't even know us, just heard about our situation through a mutual friend and decided to coordinate dinner for two weeks.  It totally ends up being dinner, lunch and freezer meals because we can't even eat all this yummyness fast enough. What a blessing.  I have been able to take the girls out to the park or play in the back yard till dinner and then just come inside to a hot meal.  The best part is that I also get a beautiful, smiling face coming to encourage me just when I am feeling the most alone, 5:30, awesome!  I am so grateful for you Jessica.  You are the hands and feet of Jesus for us this week.

I was feeling yucky this morning and my wonderful friend Jamie took Claire to her Doctor's appointment and then to preschool.  What a life saver!  I already had to residual the follow up the day of once and they would not have been happy if I did it again.THANK YOU!

I really do feel so cared for and loved.  Thank you to all the friends and family that have made this first week really great.  Thank you for the phone calls, food, messages... just stopping in to say hi means so much.  I am so blessed to have such wonderful people.  I LOVE YOU! 

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

I Remember You

There are so many ways to show graditude to our military members who fight to protect you and me. Lets make sure we do it not just think it!  To your brother, uncle, neighbor, friend... tell them.

Thank you
I love you
I am so proud of you
I am grateful
I remember
I miss you
I am praying for you


Please remember to encourage Nate.  He is on Face book often and it's a great way to tell him you remember.  If you want to send him a care package or letter I can get you the info. There are also a lot of resources on line to encourage a soldier you don't even know.

The mission of Let's Say Thanks is to provide a way for individuals across the country to recognize U.S. troops stationed overseas. By submitting a message through this site you have the opportunity to send a free personalized postcard greeting to deployed servicemen and women.

A Million Thanks is a year-round campaign to show our appreciation for our U.S. Military Men and Women, past and present, for their sacrifices, dedication, and service to our country through our letters, emails, cards, and prayers.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

A Prayer

King for all that is and all that is to come, I trust that your hand is over Nate.  We give our days to you for everything is yours.  Fill them with your plans.  Let your time not be waisted.  Use us for your glory.  Father lead us into your perfect will by your spirit.  Be ever in our hearts and minds.  Keep us safe from our enemies.  Guard and protect Nate as he follow after you.  Thank you for you grace.  Lord, your mercies never end.  I lift my eyes to you and you give me strength.  God, be near.
A lot of people have asked me how I am feeling about resent events with my husband over seas. I think, I'll keep praying. Please add a prayer too.

Monday, May 2, 2011

A Little Lion Back Pack

Makenna sat at the front door in anticipation all morning.  "Makenna's school today!  I go to school! Let's go Mom!" She hollered through the house as I hurriedly went about my morning.

Some of the most important things I do for the girls (and for myself) while Nate is gone is carry on as normally  as possible and give ourselves little fun things to look forward to.  So, in that spirit I give you Makenna's first day of preschool. She is the language model at the Guild School in Claire's old class.  They picked the right girl for talking.  Sence we have been home it's "I ate yogurt at school.  I read spider book.  I sang with puppies..." she loved it!  

P.S. We got to Skype (video phone call online) with Nate this morning! Please keep him in your prayers.

Sunday, May 1, 2011

15 Minutes

"Fifteen minutes, are you kidding me," I exclaimed.  This morning I gotten my second call in four days from my deployed husband and the first call was maybe two minutes long.  Apparently we are only aloud two fifteen minute phone calls a week right now.  That was just long enough to let our two small daughters say hi and discuss the bills that needed to be paid.  Needless to say I am bummed out. 

Not being able to call is by far the hardest part of his deployment.  As the automated voice cut in "two minutes remaining" I heard my voice crack.  Not enough time to start the water works Tami.  Pull it together and say I love you, good buy.  

We should  be able to skype more when he gets settled, if we can catch each other on line.  This might be enough to motivate me to get a lap top with some of that tax return :)  Valid, right?   

I decided to blog in the month of May about being a military family.  Sense most of this blog has been about having a special needs child it'll be fun to mix things up.  I promise to try not to let this be a venting session or too much of  a downer.  If you read the blog please let me know, "like" it or even better white a comment.  The encouragement is greatly appreciated.