Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Out of Controle
Having Claire is teaching me to be, well, a little out of control. I don't know what tomorrow is going to hold. Infact, thinking about six months from now puts me into a bit of a panic attack. I really can't hold this thing together on my own.
My life was really safe. Some days I feel like I messed it all up but you know, that life wasn't very fulfilling. I went through the motions, my predictable days and at the end of them I was exactly the same, or possibly more self absorbed.
I'm working on not having a clue, taking it out of my incapable hands and giving it to God. So when my husband is gone (Air Force) and I want to scream you can all remind me. At the bottom of the cliff there are beautiful, strong, invisible arms outstretched for me.